Author ~ L.A. Witt
Publisher ~ Samhain Publishing
Published ~ 19 July 2016
Genre ~ Contemporary Romance, M/M/M
Three’s a disaster when things come unraveled.
Rock star Nate Keller is on top of the world, but his headlining tour has one drawback. It keeps him away from his boyfriends, Theo and Cameron, for weeks at a time. Yet after four-and-a-half years—and a lot of hard work—the trio is still going strong.
But then Cam comes to visit with devastating news. After seventeen years together, he and Theo have agreed to a trial separation. Nate tries desperately to fix his lovers’ broken relationship, but there’s only so much he can do from the road.
At home, Cam tries to carry on, but feels like his whole life is spiraling out of control. Theo struggles to cope with the split as his depression worsens. They’re both spinning their wheels, quickly losing hope they can keep it together—and keep the man they both still love.
Desperate, Nate drops everything in a last-ditch attempt to pull their trio back together before they hit rock bottom. Except their love could already be shattered beyond repair.
Warning: Contains two men who must face how broken they are before they can fix their failing marriage, and the man who loves them both—but doesn’t know how to save them.
With Nate spending a lot of time on the road with his band, he is blindsided when the expected visit from his boyfriends turns into just Cam showing up and telling him that he and Theo have separated after 17 years and Theo has moved in with his brother. That they don’t want to put him in the middle or lose him. That it’s only a trial and they still love him. While all of this is true, there is so much more that is going on that they don’t even see happening. As Nate struggles with being on the road and having alternating visits from them, he grows ever more concerned that they aren’t even trying to fix things. Risking the wrath of his fans and management, Nate takes a week off to fly home and try to help Theo and Cam, but by the time he gets there, it appears that they have already given up. Nate now has to decide if he wants to continue to be in the middle or if, for his own health, he should just give up as well.
There are a few flashbacks to happier times and while none of them have fallen out of love, Cam and Theo realize that for the past few years they have been doing a lot of pretending. Cam has been hiding the panic attacks that generally occur when he is alone, away from the calming buffer of Nate or Theo. For an even longer period of time, Theo has been keeping quiet about how difficult he finds it just getting out of bed most days. This results in fighting. Theo is always making them late and Cam explodes when things aren’t done right around the house. These incidents snowballed and now the two can barely have a conversation to save their marriage. Their default is to get physical since the sex is still amazing, but that doesn’t help them discuss how to fix things, so while the drama is unrelenting, there is still plenty of sex as that seems to be the only thing that makes any of them feel momentarily better.
In the middle of all of this is Nate. When the story starts off, Nate has been with the men for almost five years, but spends significant amounts of time on the road with his band. Coming home, he attempts to steer the men in the right direction. He has broached the subject of Theo’s depression and has witnessed one of Cam’s panic attacks. He pushes them to seek counseling, but as the two men continue to refuse to help themselves Nate has to finally do what’s best for him and has him wondering whether or not he will be able to stay with them even if they do get their acts together. Whether the only reason they brought him into their marriage was to keep it from falling apart.
This book is a hard read. While I can’t use the word “enjoy” I did appreciate this story. There’s not a lot of happy in seeing Theo and Cam’s marriage falling apart and the resulting breakdown of their relationship with Nate. While it was clear to me early on that both men are suffering from undiagnosed disorders, neither Cam nor Theo see or will admit to it. They just see their partner turning into someone they can’t stand to be around. As interesting as that is, it is painful to read.
This story is completely focused on the struggles of Nate, Cam and Theo, without much outside interference. Nate’s bandmate and best friend Jill is a comfort to him and is able to give him solid advice. Theo’s brother is a horrible person that is somehow married to a lovely woman who is finally able to get through to Theo and push him to seek the help he desperately needs. I always enjoy L.A. Witt’s writing and again here she managed to really get across the despair, heartache and pain. If you’re grabbing this story just because you see “rock star” or “ménage”, I would think twice. The issues raised with respect to the conditions Cam and Theo are suffering with are serious and they’re not just pushed under the rug. The story is a long road to rock bottom and while there is a happy ending, there is not a lot of happiness along the way. If angst and drama are your thing though, you might just eat this one up.
Connect with L.A. Witt
L.A. Witt is an abnormal M/M romance writer who has finally been released from the purgatorial corn maze of Omaha, Nebraska, and now spends her time on the southwestern coast of Spain. In between wondering how she didn’t lose her mind in Omaha, she explores the country with her husband, several clairvoyant hamsters, and an ever-growing herd of rabid plot bunnies. She also has substantially more time on her hands these days, as she has recruited a small army of mercenaries to search South America for her nemesis, romance author Lauren Gallagher, but don’t tell Lauren. And definitely don’t tell Lori A. Witt or Ann Gallagher. Neither of those twits can keep their mouths shut . . .