Author ~ Grace R Duncan
Publisher ~ Dreamspinner Press
Published ~ 6th July 2015
Genre ~ M/M Contemporary BDSM Romance
When Kane Harris’s world turns upside down, his lifelong best friend is the only one to catch him.
Years ago, Ian Kelly accepted Kane would never return his love, since he knows Kane believes he’s incapable of it. Ian is willing to settle for what he can get—a best friend, sometimes casual lover, and occasional submissive. He's learned he can’t live without Kane, but he can’t let Kane know. Because when, not if, Kane confirms that Ian’s love will never be returned, Ian won’t be able to take it. But when Kane loses his job and asks Ian to step up their play to help him deal, Ian’s ability to hide his feelings falters. Then Kane starts his own computer security firm and asks Ian to join him, and Ian struggles further.
It’s not until they visit the exclusive BDSM club the Iron Door that things come to a head. Kane screws up big time, and he’s afraid he can’t fix it. He’s sure he’ll lose his best friend, his Dom, his everything… forever.
Kane and Ian are best friends, both computer geeks, flatmates and fuck buddies. At least that is what they tell themselves. They have also, over time, implemented some D/s scenes into their sex life. But when Kane quits his job he finds he wants more from Ian - at least on the D/s side of things.
Ian is more than happy to oblige. He knows he is in love with his best friend, and he likes being able to express that when he and Kane are in a scene together. It seems Kane will accept that sort of thing from "Sir" but Ian didn't think that Kane would accept it outside of the bedroom.
The D/s aspect of these two men's relationship was interesting. I know that Ian did it, played the Dom to Kane's sub, because it was during a scene he could let slip endearments and affection that was apparently missing in their vanilla sex life. I wasn't totally sure what Kane got out of it, although the author did try to explain. Kane has had a hard past, and he craved the system of punishments and rewards for pleasing his Sir. What I didn't understand was why Kane wasn't receptive to being more with Ian, outside of their scenes. The author did a good job of explaining the significance of the collar, to Kane at least and that was helpful.
Kane and Ian's relationship forms the bulk of this book, but it's not the only storyline. I loved Wade and the waitress. Kane gets a proposal to set up his own company, although initially he isn't sure why he would be singled out. Unfortunately though, that storyline fizzled out when the focus went back to Kane and Ian again.
I hated the scene at the club. I don't believe in cheating in any form and even though both men were there, and I know sharing can be an accepted part of the BDSM lifestyle, I didn't like it, or what came after it. In most of the book Ian is shown as being the caring one and honestly, in that scene I think he abused Kane's trust. Kane's reaction afterwards, and Ian's, really didn't work for me.
"I kept hearing this word get used and thrown around, but I couldn't really define it very well."
Love. That undefinable emotion. How do you know when your in it? Hell, do any of us know what it is? I know what I would like it to be and I did like the way it was described in this book. It was simple and realistic, and easy for anyone to understand. In a way realistic also describes this book. It wasn't poetry or romance, although the date Ian took Kane on was lovely. There is an HEA. There is also a lot of sex, mostly hot, some as D/s and some not, but nothing that would upset most readers. I just wish the two MCs hadn't tortured themselves and each other to get to the end.