Thursday, December 18, 2014

The Bells of Times Square by Amy Lane ~ Blog Tour ~ Interview ~ Excerpt and Giveaway

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Hi, and welcome to the blog tour for The Bells of Times Square! This book is close to my heart--if you read the extra front and back matter in the story, you will see that I drew inspiration from my grandparents and their roles in WWII. There was a lot of research involved here and also an unusual romance. I hope you enjoy this stop on the tour, and don't forget to enter the Rafflecopter below for the giveaway of $10.00 gift credit at Riptide Publishing and a signed copy of The Bells of Times Square! Feel free to comment, or to contact me at any of my links below--I'd love to hear from you! - Amy Lane

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An Interview with Amy Lane

Mark: Hi Amy and welcome to Sinfully Sexy HQ. we’re delighted to have you here with us on this blog tour stop for The Bells of Times Square. For those who haven’t yet read the book in the afterwards you talk about your grandparents. Would like to tell something to our readers how they came to be part of the inspiration for this book?

Amy: Well, my grandparents both worked for the OSS.  My grandfather, in particular, was an aerial photographer, and at one point in the war, his plane was shot down off the coast of Greece (It was one of four plane crashes he survived, actually.)  He was declared MIA for six months, and in that time, he joined the Greek Resistance, and was eventually recovered near the end of the war.  My own life is pretty pedestrian, really, but my grandpa? He did some amazing things—and I know that the truth of those things, beyond the military report and the stories he published about his time in the war, was lost when he passed away.  The things he and grandma did were only declassified a few months before her death, and he wasn’t around to comment. On the one hand, that’s too bad, because there was a greatness to that generation that we keep trying in vain to recapture. On the other hand, there were some bad things too—that was the generation that spawned McCarthyism, and that needed a violent civil rights movement to even make inroads on the racial situation in America.  So with this story, I wanted the idea that the WWII generation made some terrible sacrifices for their world—the least we could do for them is make sure the world gets better now that it’s our turn.

Mark: I’ve never been to Times Square and Nate promises to listen for the bells at New Year’s Eve in order to meet Walter again after the war. Do these bells really exist and ring on New Year’s Eve in Times Square?

Amy: Actually, they did!  What happened was, I saw an article about the subject late at night about three years ago. It was brain-dead-o-clock, and I promptly lost the article, but I had the idea for the story, and it had to be written. When I started writing the story, I spent two days looking for the damned article, or any mention of bells ringing at Times Square during WWII, in memory of the veterans who couldn’t be there.  Nothing. Nada.  In fact, in the afterword of the book I said this.  And the very last editor bless her heart, read the fact that I couldn’t find any other reference to it, and apparently she’s got mad google-fu, because she found an article that said they brought a broadcast van with recorded church bells to Times Square for the duration of the war.  By then, I sort of liked the apparent shroud of mystery—in a way, it felt more meaningful if the bells were apocryphal, and, well, it was the last edit.  Now I sort of wish I’d changed it, because she had a citation and everything, and I didn’t think of it at the time, but people might assume I’m full of shit.  But anyway, yes. To answer your question, there really were bells of Times Square.

Mark: I think one of the most difficult things in writing an historical novel must be trying to portray the attitudes of the times. I found you got this balance right between the internal struggle, especially with Nate being orthodox Jewish and being brought up that men loving men is a mortal sin. Was there any research needed for this to get this? How did you manage to get into a possible mind set for that time?

Amy: Research? I has it.  In other parts of this blog tour, I sort of detailed my research.  Let’s say there was a lot.  But I think more important than all of the facts (and brother, don’t get me started!) was the impression I had of my grandparents—surprisingly enough, not the ones who were spies in the war.  My other grandparents had been too old to participate in the war, but they were still part of the generation that migrated to California in the early fifties.  They were… conservative. I mean… my entire family thinks I’m a total goofball because I’m too demonstrative and too emotional, but oh my God. These were repressed white people at their most irritating, and I was being raised by the me-generation at their most decadent.  I had to actually observe their behavior like a scientist to figure out what made them tick.  Some of that observation came into play here. Between the generation and the geography, there was sort of an extreme conservatism coming into play.  Not political (although this set of grandparents was working class) but personal. There was a right way and a wrong way, and God help you if you ended up left of that line. I realized that this would be the kind of parent Nate would have—undemonstrative, determined, able to dampen a whole lot of life with one well placed criticism. For my father, this sort of parenting resulted in rebellion—but he was born after the war. For someone like Nate, born before the war? I thought this kind of extreme personal restraint would probably make him very lonely—and very, very wary of disclosing anything personal, even to someone he liked very much.

Mark: I felt that Walter and Nate could almost have been happy together if left in the house undisturbed. I found it quite symbolic of them trying to lead a relationship or domestic life as best they could while the whole world had gone mad around them. Almost an oasis of tranquillity in the middle of a storm. Would I be right in saying that this?

Amy: Oh yes. I did that on purpose—they were, for all intents and purposes, “playing house.”  Walter had never had a sanctuary, but I think that was one of the first things that attracted Nate to him. He could make a decrepit summer house into a true home. Nate fell right into that idea of home—it was something he wanted too.

Mark: This book for me was a lot more than an M/M romance it carried a number of messages for me personally one being about whether we can learn from the past? When you look at the world today do you think we have learnt anything?

Amy: Looking at what my country has done in the last two years?  Absolutely not. But then, there are some really horrible, horrible people in our congress right now. I just keep telling myself that they can’t last forever. We’ll get some Gen-Y in there eventually. 

Mark: The other thing I mentioned in my review that left me reflecting for days was the sacrifice such men and women made in WWII to try and make the world a better place. This is exemplified in Nate’s grandson, living a normal open relationship without fear of condemnation with his boyfriend Tony. A relationship that Nate and Walter could never really have realized. The world today is still far from perfect, but how important is it to you about the things I mentioned and to make sure these sacrifices are still never forgotten?

Amy: Oh, you hit a nerve. If the answer to number five sounds a little bitter, it’s because I am. It seems so very obvious to me that we not blindly follow people in power, especially when they tell us to do immoral things. Conservative politicians in America use the words “Nazi” and “dictator” as buzzwords to terrify people into submission, while they’re enacting really draconian policies against the poor, against people of color, against the disenfranchised, and it really, really infuriates me. I so want to believe that the world can learn. Six million Jews. 17 million Germans total. 25 million Russians. And we can still justify things like torture and deportation of children into warzones and exclusionary politics? My country has improved our stand on LGBTQ rights, and I am so very grateful. But it’s got a stranglehold on the rights of people in poverty and people of color, and I want to weep, because that was so not the point. But it was sort of the point of the book.  Blaine and Tony are going to do better—Nate left his world to them.  We need to do better. We just do.

Thank you Amy for taking the time out of your busy tour schedule and being here with us today. All of us at Sinfully Sexy would like to wish you every success with this book and for those of you who haven’t read it then PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU DO!!

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The Bells of Times Square by Amy Lane

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Title: The Bells of Times Square

Author: Amy Lane

Publisher: Riptide Publishing

Release: 15th December 2014

Genre: M/M (historical)

Rating:

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Synopsis

Every New Year’s Eve since 1946, Nate Meyer has ventured alone to Times Square to listen for the ghostly church bells he and his long-lost wartime lover vowed to hear together. This year, however, his grandson Blaine is pushing Nate through the Manhattan streets, revealing his secrets to his silent, stroke-stricken grandfather.

When Blaine introduces his boyfriend to his beloved grandfather, he has no idea that Nate holds a similar secret. As they endure the chilly death of the old year, Nate is drawn back in memory to a much earlier time . . . and to Walter.

Long before, in a peace carefully crafted in the heart of wartime tumult, Nate and Walter forged a loving home in the midst of violence and chaos. But nothing in war is permanent, and now all Nate has is memories of a man his family never knew existed. And a hope that he’ll finally hear the church bells that will unite everybody—including the lovers who hid the best and most sacred parts of their hearts.

Read Mark’s Review HERE!

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Excerpt

Dawn of a New Age

“Mom, is he ready?”

If Nate Meyer could have smiled, he would have, but his face didn’t do that anymore.

“Blaine, honey, it’s freezing outside. Really? Are we really doing this?”

Nate closed his rheumy eyes. His wrinkled, liver-spotted hand shimmied as he plucked at the polyester blanket across his lap. Please, Stephanie. Please. The bells. I might hear the bells.

“Mom, he lives for this, you know that.”

Good boy. Blaine, such a good boy. Dark black hair, big brown eyes—couldn’t look more like me as a young man if we’d tried.

But then, Stephanie had married a nice boy, a dentist, with black hair and brown eyes as well, and she’d laughed about that. A good Jewish girl marrying a Jewish dentist—it was like she’d read a manual, yes? Her children would look almost frum. Nate and Carmen had laughed quietly about that as well, because Stephanie herself looked German. Her brother Alan had blond hair and brown eyes, although Nate suspected that after he hit twenty-five, the blond streaks had come from a bottle. Well, yes, a man could do that now, in these days. A man could dye his hair and not be accused of being a . . . What had Walter called them?

Poof. Yes, that was the word.

A man could streak his hair and dress himself fancy, and not be afraid of being a poof.

In his head, Nate laughed, and he could see himself as Walter had seen him: just like Blaine with his dark curly hair, dark-brown eyes, dark lashes, full lips, a slight space between his teeth, and a nose with a decided bow outwards. He’d always looked like a Jew, had never been ashamed of it, not even when he’d moved from his predominantly Jewish neighborhood in the Lower East Side to the barracks with the other USAAF privates, some of them from places in the country that had never seen a Jew before. That posting hadn’t lasted long, though.

Somewhere, somebody had seen his recruitment papers. The degree in art history meant nothing, but his father was a clockmaker, and Nate worked in his shop. His specialty? Cameras, the new and the old. And Nathan Meyer suddenly became a valuable commodity, didn’t he? Six-pointed star and all, Nate could work cameras, and in 1941, when Brits had just started figuring out how to outfit their Spitfires so the pilots didn’t die and the cameras didn’t freeze, that man who could take a picture was like gold, wasn’t he?

Nate hadn’t hidden his gloating, either, when he’d been recruited by the OSS while in the USAAF. He’d been inducted into the 25th Tactical and Reconnaissance Wing—more specifically, the 654th bombardment. Him, Nate Meyer. Even he had something special, something the OSS needed.

It had started with the clocks. Everyone had something to contribute, because that was the war, right? Even Nate’s mother had planted a victory garden in the flower bed she kept in the little concrete apron behind the family brownstone. Before the crash, when Nate was a little boy, she’d worn gloves when dusting to keep her hands soft. And now, with the crash and the war? She was gardening!

And Nate, who had needed to beg his father to buy an old Brownie and then had taken it apart, put it together, learned all the words—f-stop, shutter speed, lens width, scope—while his father complained bitterly about the newfangled thing and the expense of the invention, that Nate now had a special skill to offer. So he got the promotion and the raise in pay and the better bunk, and all for taking pictures.

His father hadn’t been so proud. Pictures? What good were pictures? Officers needed pictures; the war needed men! But of course, pictures of officers were what Nate had told his parents he took so his letters home didn’t look like a picture puzzle. In reality, his pictures were very different . . .

“Grandpa? Are you ready yet?”

Not so ready. Because my body is meat, boy, and no amount of wiping it off or swaddling it in these acrylic afghans your mother makes will render it more than meat.

Blaine didn’t hear him, of course. He was a strong boy, and Nate had enough of himself to wrap his arms around Blaine’s neck so the boy could lift him up from his bed and set him in his wheelchair. Stephanie’s husband—another good boy. Oh, Nate was surrounded by good boys. He was grateful—had a ramp installed. So thank heavens, there would be no bump-kerthump, bump-kerthump, as there had been so often in the first days after the stroke.

“Mom! Where’s his coat? The thick wool one, with the leather gloves in the pocket?”

“Blaine, do you really want to—”

There was a knock at the front, and Stephanie left off her nagging, probably to open the door.

“That’s Tony,” Blaine said. He had always liked talking to Nate and had kept up the habit of it even after Nate couldn’t talk anymore. Nate might find it irritating as hell, but at least Blaine talked about real things. He certainly could do without Stephanie’s yammering about buying something new for the house. He hated the new things—the new tile, the new tables—because her mother had worked so hard for the old things. It felt disloyal, this opening of the house, the sunshiny colors, the skylight over the living room. Hearing Stephanie justify these things to Nate—that only hurt him more.

But Blaine talked about politics, he talked about books.

And because Nate couldn’t talk, couldn’t tell, couldn’t condemn, Blaine also talked about Tony.

Nate lived for Blaine’s monologues about Tony.

At first it had been Tony’s mind—the funny things that Tony had said. Tony was in Blaine’s sociology course at NYU, and he had the best things, the best shows, the best songs.

Then it had been Tony’s laughter, the jokes that he told and how he liked action-adventure movies and didn’t like the Oscar ones because they were too sad. Blaine had been disappointed by this at first, because Blaine himself was always so serious, always so worried about tomorrow. But Nate had listened, and Blaine had started to laugh at himself more, appreciate that you needed to laugh in order to work toward a better tomorrow.

Sometimes Blaine would talk about how he’d been giving Tony lessons about being a Jew, which made Nate laugh inside. When Nate had been Blaine’s age, he hadn’t even spoken Yiddish in an attempt to not align himself with his father or any of the traditions that Nate had been forced to follow, simply because they were traditions. He had changed when he’d come home from the war, embraced those stories, loved those traditions, for Carmen’s sake, for his own, for his family’s.

And Blaine had learned to love them as well. Blaine would study the Passover Seder stories and the Purim stories, and tell them to Tony, and then come home and tell his zayde all about Tony’s reactions. So yes, Nate had heard all about Tony’s love of a good story.

More recently, he’d heard all about Tony’s smile.

But Nate had yet to meet Tony, and now, hearing the suppressed excitement in Blaine’s voice, he was suddenly excited, as well. He was going out, out into the cold to listen for the bells, and he would get to meet Blaine’s Tony. He made an effort then, worked hard, and a sound came out. A happy sound, he hoped.

“You like that?” Blaine smiled while he helped Nate into his coat. “You want to meet Tony? He’ll like you. I told him you were a hero in the war, you know? He thought that was pretty awesome.”

Awesome—everything these days was awesome or excellent or wonderful. What about Blaine’s generation made them talk in superlatives? Nate missed the days when you could understate things, when it would be nice or nifty or interesting instead.

Of course, if Nate had lived in a time when your whole life could be accomplished on a little glowing box on the kitchen table, well then, everything might indeed have been awesome, wouldn’t it?

But Blaine didn’t hear Nate’s thoughts on awesome.

“I wanted him to meet you. I mean, I know you can’t exactly tell him stories, Zayde, but you know . . .”

You wanted to know if I would welcome him, love him as you do already. You wanted to know if Zayde would bless you and make it all good, even if your mother would say to stop this mishegas already, there is no gay in her family.

The moment stretched on achingly as Blaine helped him with his gloves. Nate remembered this boy when he was a child. He would cling to Nate’s hand, bury his face in Nate’s thick wool coat whenever they went outdoors during the holidays. New York, even the Upper East Side, was loud and frightening for a small boy. And now, the boy had found another hand to help him through, and he wanted to know if his Zayde would bind their hands together, like a rabbi at a wedding.

Nate longed to give his blessing.

Blaine buttoned up Nate’s coat. He was sweltering inside it, but, well, it was better than freezing as soon as they made it outside. Blaine was in the middle of tucking another blanket around Nate’s lap when he turned.

“Tony!” The warmth of his voice, the pitch of the enthusiasm, told Nate far too much about how hard it was to be here, wrapping his grandfather up like a swaddled child, to help him honor this old tradition.

“Is he all ready?” Tony asked cheerfully, and Nate’s good eye focused on him.

Oh my. The left side of his face could still move, and he knew he was smiling in pleased surprise.

Tony was a handsome boy, with skin nearly the color of Nate’s black wool coat and teeth that gleamed against that dark skin. Oh, look at them! Boys who could look at each other and smile like that, dark skin and six-pointed star and all.

If Nate could have spoken, he would have said Awesome! or Excellent!

Blaine . . . such a good boy.

Of course, Nate’s father would have said no such thing about Blaine’s choice. But then Selig Meyer had not been a fan of Carmen when she had first followed Nate home from the library in the fall of ’47—although he’d never said so to her face. Too fair, too blue eyed, too delicate, even though her parents went to the same temple as Nate’s family, when his father went at all. But he’d come to love her—probably more than he loved his only son—by the end.

A boy—any boy, no less a boy like this one—would have sent Nate running from the city, his father’s outraged disappointment chasing him like a black wave.

But then, no boy had ever really appealed to Nate after Provence Claire La Lune. No girl, either, but Carmen had been kind, and determined. A marriage—a kosher marriage—had been no less than her ultimate goal, and Nate, so lost after the war, what was he to do?

“Hereyago, Mr. Meyer!” Tony was right behind him, pushing the chair down the ramp, holding the back of it so very low to keep it from pitching. “Blaine’s been looking forward to this for a week, you know. Kept trying to tell me about the bells.”

Nate glanced around, his right eye rolling frantically in the useless, drooping side of his face. He made a noise then, a panicked and inarticulate noise, because—

“Blaine’s back in the house, Mr. Meyer,” Tony said quickly. “No worries. You got no worries at all. He was just checking with his mom. Didn’t want her to panic none, ’cause he said he was going to edge in close to 37th Street tonight, and it’s a bit of a walk, and sort of a riot, but you know that.”

Nate let out a long exhale, and the slap of the wind tried to steal that breath from him as it went. Of course, of course. Blaine would not leave him in the hands of someone who would not care for him. That was not his way.

“You ready?” Blaine called from the top of the stairs. “Ready, Grandpa? We’re going to stop down at the corner for some hot chocolate, and then make our way toward Times Square.”

“Man, that place is gonna be crowded. Do you really wanna go all that way?”

Nate couldn’t be sure, but he thought there might have been a touch of . . . something. There was a pause that bespoke intimacy, of that he was certain.

“We’re not going all the way into the square,” Blaine said quietly. “We’re going near the square. Close enough to hear church bells, if there are any.”

“Church bells,” Tony said blankly. “I know you told me this, but why are we listening for church bells again? Do church bells even ring on New Year’s at Times Square?”

I don’t know, Nate thought. I never heard them.

“And besides, aren’t you Jewish?”

Blaine laughed shyly. “You really have to ask?”

Tony’s return laugh was fond. “No, I guess not. So why church bells? Why not temple bells or something?”

Blaine sighed. “I’m not really sure. It’s just . . . It’s weird, really. Grandpa, for as long as I can remember, he’s gone on a walk on New Year’s Eve—Mom said he did it when she was little too. Grandma never went. He always said he was listening for bells.”

Once. My Carmen went once. Then she gave the walk to me, my once a year, to listen for church bells.

“That’s sort of cool,” Tony said, and Nate could feel his regard. For a moment, Nate was the handsome, strapping man who had gone off to war, and he was confused. Wasn’t he wounded, slight, limping on the damaged body that kept him from returning to active duty, the lone stranger in any crowd? Older, seasoned, a child on his hip and one by the hand? Middle-aged, successful, a hard-working photographer with his own exclusive Manhattan boutique?

Old, bereft, a widower, remembering how to make his own toast and the reasons a man should get out of bed in the morning?

Helpless, afloat in his own head, his body a lingering wreck of lung sounds and heartbeats, his only power in his thrice-weekly visits to the pool with an aqua teacher?

Young and in love, holding his male lover to his chest after the fury of the mishkav zakhar, the one act between men that was considered unforgivable, that reshaped the hearts of them both.

Oh God, the merciful and wise, who was Nathan Selig Meyer, and where was he in time?

The distant sound of shouts called him to the present, the faraway merriment reminding him that those shouts of joy were just out of his reach.

Walter, are you there? Are they ringing the bells? I can’t hear the bells!

“Here we go, Grandpa,” Blaine said, pulling the wheelchair back next to a bench. They were in a lovely neighborhood, not too far from the statue of the tailor and the needle. He used to see stage actors here, sometimes. Nate didn’t know if they owned or rented, but he loved the excitement of walking down the street and, Hey! There was someone you’d seen perpetrate magic on the stage or the screen.

He enjoyed this place, this bench under the tree. Blaine had chosen well.

He could hear Blaine and Tony sitting down on the bench beside him, talking animatedly, in a way that bespoke great familiarity.

“So, we’re out here to hear bells that don’t get rung?” Tony sounded skeptical, but playful too.

“Yeah,” Blaine replied shyly. “I mean, I looked it up once. The most I could get was a reference, mind you, that a nearby church rang bells on New Year’s Eve during the war.”

“Did you keep it?”

“Are you kidding? You’ve seen me study!”

Tony made an exasperated sound. “Augh, kid, you are killing me. You know I live for this stuff.”

“I’m a year younger than you, smart-ass, but look here. I brought you something.”

Nate saw Blaine pull something out of his coat, and inside, he smiled.

“Oh wow! A scrapbook!”

“Yeah, apparently my great-grandmother kept a scrapbook of Zayde—”

“Thereyago, talking Jewish to me again!”

Blaine laughed, but it wasn’t embarrassed. “Yiddish, Tony. We call it Yiddish, and I only know a few words. It’s like ‘Grandpa,’ but, you know, affectionate, like ‘Papa’ or ‘Grampy’—Zayde.”

A speculative silence then. “Zayde . . . That’s nice. What about, you know . . .” And now Tony was the shy one. “What I want to call you, but nothing sounds right.”

“Mmm.” Blaine’s voice fell, then rose intimately. “Tateleh, I think.”

Tony laughed a little. “That don’t hardly sound real. But, you know, better than ‘baby.’”

“Oy gevalt!” Blaine exaggerated, and they both laughed again, the sound low and personal. “Anything’s better than ‘baby’!”

More laughter, and instead of feeling excluded, Nate felt the opposite. Like he was in on the joke, in on the secret. He knew something about these two young men that nobody else did.

“Seriously,” Tony said, the laughter in his voice faded and sad. “You got all these traditions—”

“Not so many, now,” Blaine said quickly. “My grandparents, they were Reformed Jews—sort of like, modern but, you know, you gotta say it different. I’m not sure if Zayde believed, exactly, but he thought it was important. Traditions were important to him—us belonging somewhere. He said that a lot to my mom, that we needed a chance to belong. He wanted that. But”—and Nate could imagine Blaine’s shrug—“my parents, they barely made it to temple.”

“You got a bar mitzvah, though,” Tony chided.

Blaine grunted. Direct hit. “It was a party, you know? I said some verses, recited some Torah, got the party. Mom didn’t want her neighbors to think we couldn’t afford it; it was a status thing.”

“But you liked the words. You told me that. The words mean something to you.”

“Yeah, but only the good ones. Why is this important, anyway?”

It was Tony’s turn to grunt, and Nate couldn’t see, couldn’t turn his head, but he heard what sounded like a kiss. On the cheek, on the hand, on the lips, Nate couldn’t be sure, but men, they didn’t sit and kiss parts of each other when they were talking about sports or the weather.

“Because it is,” Tony said lowly. “I want to look at your family scrapbook and say, ‘Hey! That’s my boyfriend’s history!’ Is that so bad?”

“No.” There were more kissing sounds, and Nate burned inside to talk to them, to tell them, to explain. The Orthodox rabbis said one thing and the Reformed rabbis said another. It was supposed to be okay if you were that way, as long as you didn’t act on it, but Nate had been young, he’d felt the pull, the strength like steel springs, binding a human heart to another. What was talk of an unseen God when the world had fallen to chaos? All was hell and violence—how bad could the mishkav zakhar be?

“Does your mom know?” Blaine asked when the kissing sounds stopped. “Did you tell her?”

“About you? No.”

Blaine grunted shortly, but it sounded hurt, not angry.

“You need to be ready to come out to your family first, you know that right?” Tony said sternly, and it must have been an argument they’d had before, because Blaine’s sound changed.

He sighed instead. In Nate’s line of vision, a parade of cars trolled slowly down the street, headlamps slicing through the darkness like the wind was currently slicing through Nate’s coat. Light, steel, it all found a way in.

“But my mom knows about me,” Tony said, sighing. “I told you that. When I was a little kid, I said I liked boys. She cried, she tried to talk me out of it, she threatened to have my uncle beat the gay out of me. But Uncle Jason wouldn’t do it, and in the end, she just accepted it. I just had to be . . . you know . . .”

“Stubborn,” Blaine said. “You.”

Nate wanted to see them. More cars wandered the night, but in his mind, he saw that beautiful young man with the skin like night touching Blaine’s hair, his forehead, his cheek. Tenderness, Nate imagined. There would be tenderness.

Abruptly, his skin—which had deadened, had become blind to the realm of touch—ached for tenderness like amputees were said to ache for missing limbs. Once, Nate had known such tenderness, and he would never feel it again, not in this body.

“Would they cut you off?” Tony asked. “If you came out? If we moved in, like we’ve been talking about?”

“Eh . . .” Blaine said uncertainly. “I don’t know.” Nate heard rustling, and from his finite line of vision, he saw Blaine’s knees shift so the boy was facing Nate. “I don’t think Grandpa would, even with all the tradition, because . . . I don’t know. Because he was just too good a guy. But my mom, well . . .” He grunted. “I heard my grandpa call her kalta neshomeh once, when she was redecorating the house after Grandma died. He was hurt, you know? I mean, she said he was just being cheap because, well, I guess it was a thing. The Depression had everybody saving money and stuff, but it was more than that— All of Grandma’s stuff was getting put in storage and sold, and Grandpa was shoved into a room and . . . and it wasn’t right.”

“So what does it mean?”

“I had to ask our rabbi. I think he yelled at Grandpa for it too. It means ‘cold soul.’”

Tony’s low whistle made Nate smile inside. Oh yes, yes I did call her that. She deserved it, selling her mother’s things like that. No, we did not go to temple as often as we could have, but we had a happy home. Those things should not have been sold as if they had no meaning. Carmen’s old jewelry boxes, her costume jewelry, the desk where she’d done the store and family accounts for more than forty years. Couldn’t Stephanie have waited until Nate died? It wasn’t like he had more time than anyone else! Of course, Nate chuckled inwardly, that had been six years ago, and he was still hanging around. Perhaps he did have more time!

“Wow,” Tony said in the resulting quiet. Then, low voiced, urgent: “I have my own apartment. You have a job working at the hospital. I mean, we’ve talked about it before, but even if they cut you off, you could move in anyway. You know I want you with me, right?”

“I want to be there too,” Blaine said plaintively. “But my mother—”

“I mean, you could still be a doctor, even if your mother doesn’t want to pay for school. You’d have to take out loans and stuff, but, it’s like, people are always so afraid of not having any money, but whether you have it or not, you’re living your life, and that’s the fun part, right? If you’ve got food, a roof over your head—”

He was so urgent, so upset. Nate wanted to reassure him. He loves you, Tony. Don’t worry. Our boy will do the right thing.

Sha shtil, tateleh,” Blaine said, and his knees shifted in Nate’s vision again. Nate could picture them, Blaine holding Tony so that his face buried into Blaine’s deceptively wide shoulder, their faces close together, a dropped kiss on Tony’s forehead. “I hear you.”

“Yeah, well, you don’t have anything to say to me!” There was a rustle, and Tony must have stood up because so did Blaine. Nate gave up chasing cars in the darkness. He closed his eyes and saw the boys—his boys—like a movie.

Oh, Walter. It looks like a good one. A romance—I wonder how it ends.

“I want to say yes,” Blaine murmured. “But I need to ask Zayde.”

“You need to ask—”

Yes, bubeleh, I am confused, as well.

“Don’t say it,” Blaine told him softly. “I just . . . I want so badly to talk to someone in my family, do you understand? He’s the one person who told me about tradition and about banding together with people who care about you, and he’s the one person who can’t say he doesn’t love me anymore.”

“I hear you.” An ironic pause. “Bells, huh?”

“Yes. I am not so sure we will hear any tonight, but if we do, maybe we should take it as a sign, you think?”

“I think I’m freezing my ass off, that’s what I think. You said coffee?”

“Thank you. See it? Three blocks up.”

“Yeah, I know. Is your gramps gonna want some?”

“Get him hot chocolate—me too, for that matter. I’m not such a fan of coffee.”

Tony’s briskness faded, and Nate saw a hand, covered in a bright-red wool mitten, reach out and pluck off Blaine’s hat so the other hand could ruffle his curly hair. Tony stepped into Nate’s vision and placed the hat carefully on Blaine’s head before kissing him on the forehead.

“I know you’re not,” he said fondly. “I’m just as happy you prefer ‘hot chocolate.’”

Blaine choked on a guffaw. “That was awful. Oh my God, I should break it off with you just for that!”

“You wouldn’t really—” beat “—would you?”

“No. Oh God, no. I just need a minute, Tony. Just, let me swallow it all. Coming out, moving out, is . . . irrevocable. I want to be sure.”

“The fact that you take it so seriously? That’s why I love you. That’s why it’s worth the wait. Just know that all I want for both of us is— Is there a Yiddish word for ‘everything’?”

“I don’t know,” Blaine said softly, and they were standing so close!

“That’s what I want for you,” Tony said, and this time the kiss was personal, intimate, on the lips.

Nate couldn’t look away.

Alz. Alz is the word. That’s what you want for each other. Alz. Isn’t that what we wanted, Walter? Isn’t that what you wanted for us? Wasn’t that what we were looking for, listening for, with the bells?

But Walter didn’t answer, and Nate watched in frustration as Blaine’s Tony disappeared into the night, looking for the coffee shop. The lights around them, from the streets, from the cars, were swallowed up, and the darkness washed over his vision like a closed shutter, and when the shutter opened again, he was back, back in 1943, before Walter, before Carmen, when his world was narrowed to the tiny bunk with Hector and Joey and the missions he flew and the danger and the horror of a war that had swallowed the world . . .

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Meet the Author


Amy Lane

I am creative, distracted, and terribly weird. I love my children to distraction, and I love my hobbies even when they piss me off. I come from a double line of extremely creative, intelligent people who hated authority so much they dodged higher education, and I married a wonderful man who is quiet, conservative, devastatingly funny, and perfect. Our children are constant reminders that God and Goddess have a profound sense of humor, and that all of the things you dislike most about yourself but pretend don't exist really do come back on the karmic wheel to kick your ass when you least expect it. My family keeps me young and humble and I try every day to make them proud. I've written seven books, VULNERABLE, WOUNDED, BOUND, & RAMPANT which are all part of the Little Goddess series, BITTERMOON I and II, and Keeping Promise Rock, found at Dreamspinner Press. I write to placate the voices in my head, profanity is the element I swim in, and knitting socks at stoplights has become my twitch.

 

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18 comments:

  1. This one looks so great, I'd love a chance to win! Thanks for the giveaway.

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  2. Such a very insightful interview! Thank you Mark and Amy!

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  3. The Bells seems to be a departure from Amy's other adult books. I wonder why she decided to do a historical?

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  4. You guys are very welcome-- and Anne, I have a squirrel brain. I've done historical with Sidecar (25 years ago counts!) and I'd love to do some Regency or Victorian romance. It's all about what hits me when, I guess :-)

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  5. It sounds great, but it's Amy Lane, so I'm not surprised. ;)

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  6. The story sounds so special!

    Trix, vitajex(at)aol(Dot)com

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  7. I'd love a chance to win e-book, thanks.

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  8. Amy Lane is one of my favorite authors! Thanks for the interview and giveaway!

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  9. Great interview. Thank you for sharing ^^

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  10. The book sounds so good and I can't wait to read it.

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  11. this book sounds so interesting can't wait to read it jeaninebeaulieu@hotmail.ca

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  12. Thanks for the interview and giveaway!

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  13. Not sure what happened to my comment. Try again. I enjoy Amy's writing so look forward to any new books by her.

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  14. I love all of your books Amy, and after reading this excerpt, I can tell this will be another of your books I read again and again.

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